My Ex has come back to hunt me!

My Pipo,
I've been thinking and thinking and then thinking some more and my brain is aching from it all. I was dating this guy *Tom way back in school in 2002. We broke up after one year, but I can say he was my first true love. I loved him to bits. As kids, of course we were not thinking marriage (I was, but never told him so). We told the pastor of our school fellowship and he started asking our plans for the future. He pour sand sand for my garri. I was quick to point out we were just dating and having a good time. He said we should seriously consider the future and if marriage was not in the picture somewhere, we should break it off. Of course the poor boy was not thinking marriage, for God's sake we were just both 20! He got cold feet and I sensed his uncertainty, so I broke it off. It was really difficult for me. I wanted him to realize that he couldn't do without me and come begging me to come back. It never happened. We just remained friends and the worst part of it was we had to see each other almost everyday during one fellowship activity or the other. I lost a lot of weight and developed a close friendship with an older male friend of ours which helped me get through the whole thing. I tried to make him jealous (the subject for another post), but nothing worked. Eventually, I gave up and learned to live with my aching heart and put it all behind me after I left school in 2004.

The thing is, I never completely got over him. Now he is in Abuja. The company he works for transferred him from Lagos. He called me to tell me. On hearing his voice alone, my heart fluttered. He asked if we could hang out. This was during the holiday period and my boo travelled out of town to visit family. I really didn't know he still had this effect on me. This is really crazy. I agreed to meet with him. I convinced myself that it was no biggie. If I refused it would be as if I.... I don't have any idea what I thought. He came to my house on Christmas eve. I heard his knock by 7:10pm. Why my heart was racing as fast as it was I had no idea. I opened the door and let him in, he was looking yummy. I was shaking like jelly. I didn't realize how much I had missed him. It had been 3 years. All thought of my boo had flown out of the window. Tom reached out and gave me a hug, and held me for a little longer. I pulled away before I disgraced myself there.

I suggested we leave immediately so we didn't miss our movie. He agreed but not after asking for a glass of water. While he was sipping, he was staring at me as if he was seeing me for the first time.
"You have changed a bit," he said quietly
"You too," was all I could manage. I wondered what happened to my tongue.
"I look er,matured," he joked. "But you are even more beautiful."
I just smiled. I didn't trust myself to reply. I couldn't believe he was sitting in my living room. I don't really expect you guys to understand. I used to adore him, worship him even. It was that intense. It is a wonder I never had sex with him, but God knows I considered it.
"I missed you," he blurted out. "I don't know how I stayed away for 3 years. I have really missed you Angel." He called me the nickname he used to call me then.
Make una see me o. Why now when I am in a secure relationship? My boo is crazy about me and i know it. I could never hurt him, but with this guy around, yawa dey o.
I will complete the whole story tomorrow. I have to get back to work. Please bear with me.

In other happenings, both Christina Aguilera and Nicole Richie (of simple life) have giving birth to a baby boy and girl respectively. This happened over the weekend. This is wishing them all the best.

I'm out.